bang, bang {you hit the ground}

Monday, December 29, 2003

The funny thing I've noticed, is that when I'm around, no one really notices me. And when I'm absent, people make a big deal about it.

Well, excuse me.

Went to the library. Queenstown branch is more well-stocked in novels than Bukit Merah. Dad complains about the lack of non-fiction. o.O

Talked to Yu Heng yesterday. Haven't spoken to him in ages. We talked about junior colleges and humanities courses and lots of nice, random things. Sweet guy. His voice is a bit high, but soft and measured. Reminds me of those Suitably Depressed Poet types. And even though I really do go for baritones (Bono, John Rzeznik, Trent Reznor) one can make exceptions, ne? *lol*

... she wrote at 09:15 p.m.

Saturday, December 27, 2003

Watched RotK with my father. Cried throughout most of the show. ;_; It wasn't entirely dark, more bittersweet and tragic than anything. All I have to do is think of Pippin singing and I start to tear up again. It's like FFX, only years of fantasy novels breaking on me. Ack. *sniffle* I'm a sentimental sob.

But there were some nice parts, funny bits where the whole audience tittered. Like Gandalf telling Pippin what not to say. ("It would not be wise... Don't mention Boromir... or Frodo... or the Ring... or Aragorn.... In fact, I think it might be better if you didn't speak at all.") And Legolas having his moment with the Oliphant and indignant!Gimli. ("...That only counts as one!") And the first proper kiss in ages. w00t. Go Estell XD

Alright, it was emotionally-taxing, but I'm going to watch it again anyways. =P

Ate Yoshinonya (sp?), Dad paid, came home and am now reading WitchKing!slash >D

Ah, life is good.

... she wrote at 09:12 p.m.

Friday, December 26, 2003

Aegis helped me fix the problem (emulator hanging at Mistodon fight) with FF9 disc 3! *squeeee* <3 Aegis. She is l33t and she r0x0rz. XD

Xiang Xiang came over to swim today. She's raiding my cookbook collection while I play FF9. And my dad booked tickets for RotK tomorrow. *dances*

*goes off to kil- um, level up more*

... she wrote at 06:44 p.m.

Thursday, December 25, 2003

Note to everyone: Please don't call my house at ungodly hours (read: 1 a.m.) to wish me Merry Christmas or whatever. In fact, don't call my house after 10. All of you should know that's my incoming call curfew. =P SMS me if it's that important, m'kay? Here's a tip: If I don't reply it's probably BECAUSE I'M SLEEPING.

Pffffttt.

Anyway, Merry Christmas. I hope you all like whatever artwork that's up. Now, go bother someone else because I've got FF9 to rush. XD Ja ne.

P/s: I still love you all. Just don't ever get me into trouble like that again.

... she wrote at 04:18 p.m.

Tuesday, December 23, 2003

I realise, that the only way you're going to be remotely popular on DA is if you CG your art. Completely. As in, digital oils.

Great. I really could take my dad up on his offer of a tablet right now.

*blubbers and goes back to her watercolour pencils.* The world hates me.

... she wrote at 08:20 p.m.

Monday, December 22, 2003

I spent three hours wandering around the Tree and trying to defeat Soulcage. @#$%&**#@!@^&* Soulcage. That thing nearly drove me insane with Lvl5Death (K.O Vivi and Zidane), made me restart over and over again, until I gave up switched tatics. Stopping summoning Phoenix so that it wouldn't do that annoying 600+ damage Flame attack to counter. Had Dagger and Eiko each revive the traditional way. Finally pounded him to itty-bitty bits with non-fire elemental attacks. Gods. Stupid thing. Wasted one hour of leveling up on my first try (because that would mean Eiko being level 25 and getting K.Oed on the opening move as well). T.T

La. Cannot get Pristontale to install. Which is a good thing I suppose, considering I want to get as much storyline covered by the end of December as well as rush Biology assignments (I finished 1 1/4 out of the four I'm holding the model answers to) and A Maths papers (for my tutor).

*curses for not finishing FF9 earlier* If I have to delay Christmas art, it's all Kuja's fault. XP

... she wrote at 10:21 p.m.

Sunday, December 21, 2003

*watches Pristontale download* I hope it's a fun game. Killing time til Bern finishes de-bugging. Then Isthar and Aurenn can get properly married. =P

Having a sore throat. Damn. I hope I can still make it for tomorrow.

... she wrote at 05:28 p.m.

Saturday, December 20, 2003

I have four rubber bands in my mouth. They hurt like a bit- *glances at Sen* ... something that hurts more than I can eloquently describe. =P

My dentist is a lunatic. Tooth extraction and gung-ho band-strapping here-take-these-use-em'-for-a-month-and-forty-dollars-for-the-cleaningthankyouverymuch all in one day.

Slept for four hours after getting back. It takes me one hour to swallow soup and soggy soup-soaked bread. That is how much I am suffering. <3 painkillers. My pretty little blue pills, what would I do without you?

On the plus side, it rained for the most of the afternoon, so I got plenty of reading done. Still haven't completed Biology assignment. -.-;;

Off to play RO now. Toodles.

... she wrote at 09:38 p.m.

Friday, December 19, 2003

Bern SMS-ed me in the late afternoon and said she'd be over at four. Loads of girly-bonding fun. Yay.

You know, I realise, after all these years being a bookworm I can still give the boys a run for their money at being a pervert. XD XD

Me: And then I was thinking, 'Should I get the Hood or the Hat? But the Hood is DEF+1 and the Hat is DEF+2 and since they both cost the same, I bought the Hat and I was like, 'Oh my god! It's pink and it matches my gloves!'.

Her: ... ...

Me: What?

Her: ... You psychotic fashion-obsessed Acolyte.

Me: Like you know, with the Bible in one hand and like, a copy of Vogue in the other.

Her: Oh, and you could hold the Vogue magazine and your mace like this *raises arm* Statue of Liberty~!

And then there was all that talk about melee fighters and PVPs and rosaries and the fear of God. (*calmly* "Heal." *sparklyeffects* "Now." *raises Rosary - MDEF+5* "Prepare to face the wrath of God.")

XD XD XD RO rox0rs, baby.

... she wrote at 11:56 p.m.

Thursday, December 18, 2003

Sorry, Bern. I couldn't resist. *runs and hides* XD

Stupid dentist. Stupid receptionist putting on airs. Called twice this week. "We'll inform you on Friday, your slot on the waiting list is not yet confirmed." Well, now that we finished paying for the treatment before it ended, I guess whether my appointment actually gets confirmed isn't !@#@%& important anymore. I wonder if they'll even charge me extra for retainers. Money-grubbing idiots. I'll bring them to CASE if that happens, I swear. Pfffttt.

Finished Chocolat. Beautiful set-up, wonderful characters, but one of the lamest closings I have ever read. Oh well. It was good while it lasted. Finished Smoking Poppy as well. Nothing spectacular, except that it's set in Chiang Mai. o.O Talk about weird. Seems like I got a pretty sanitized version of that place during my tour. *snickers*

Mother carrying on about sleeping early being better than any amount of Retin-A or AHA facewash. So I will humour her and turn in now. Oyasumi.

... she wrote at 11:01 p.m.

Wednesday, December 17, 2003

Bern, darling, your picture's done. *dies*

Happily scribbling and ignoring Biology assignments as usual. Lalalala~

I'm going to save up and buy myself a nice 48 colours or more set of watercolour pencils.

Wondering if I should sell off some artwork during Fan-tasia. I mean, it's not exactly spectacular. Requests are one thing, but paying money for amatuer art is different, I guess. I think I'll stick to display. Nya. *pride cannot take it*

Going to play some badly-neglected FF9.

Plugging: Goo Goo Dolls - Here is Gone

... she wrote at 03:18 p.m.

Tuesday, December 16, 2003

So tired. Painted doorframes in the afternoon and got emulsion paint on my hands. Had to use turpentine to get it off. Hurt. Hands are once again swollen. I'll never be a lady at this rate. =P

Creatively exhausted as well. Drew a Dolphin picture in the morning and coloured it, but it looks awful scanned in. Sketched Bernadette's Assasin picture, with Mother looking over my shoulder and offering 'helpful advice'. Bloody disconterting. Shall ink and colour it tomorrow, when the words on my screen stop sliding away.

Will poke Dad to open Bailey's. Useless trying to read LotR slash at this point.

... she wrote at 10:26 p.m.

Monday, December 15, 2003

Came back today (reached home at 1245 hrs) from Chiang Mai, Thailand. So much blog and lj back-log reading to clear. @.@

Anyway, Chiang Mai was fun and I blew so much cash (in lieu of a birthday cake, dinner and celebration) at the night market and shopping centres.

Hmm... let me try and remember what we did. ^^;;

On Thursday I woke up at the ungodly hour of 5 a.m to check in for our 8 a.m. flight. Three hours later, arrived in Chiang Mai at 10 a.m. (ah, the wonder of time zones). Thank god for white chocolate-chip cookies and Robert Silverburg, or I might have been reduced to banging my head against the airplane window. Checked in, thrashed my room, took a long hot bath, after being deprived of hot water during the renovation. There was a shopping centre connected to the hotel, so we had lunch and walked around there. At night, we went to the night market (insert dance here), bought so many clothes (mostly my mother's though). Got myself a top, and a skirt and ate meatballs from the roadside stall, which were one baht each and bursting with fat, but I didn't care, because they tasted so damn good.

The second day was a bit of a let-down, though. We arranged a tour with the hotel to Chiang Rai (northen-most part of Thailand), which meant waking up at 5.30 a.m (!!!) and leaving at 7.15 a.m. It wasn't a spectacular tour, because most of it was spent in the minibus for anywhere from one to three hours at a go, during which I slept for a good part of the time. Our tour group was utterly boring, consisting of us - The Annoying Chinese Family - The Two Locals, The Snotty British 'Globetrotter', and his American-born Korean female, but no less agrivating, counterpart. I was stuck in the back with my mother and brother, and it is indeed a very bumpy and warm ride in the back. We spent most of the time talking in dialect and insulting the English 'gentleman' (twenty-three and ready to take over the world - I read his entry on the attendance register), who was wearing a grey sweater over an orange one, and took the burnt of my mother's snide remarks. ("He think he looks so dashing in that." "I hope he doesn't faint." "Stupid boy, doesn't he know that the woman is older is than him?") Alas, a very boring trip, cooking eggs in at hot springs (not onsen - holes in the ground filled with steaming water), looking at temple ruins, visiting the Golden Triangle (where Thailand, Burma, and Laos meet. Opium. Heh.), standing around the Laos immigration (The Northen-Most Part of Thailand!) and visiting hill tribes ("Mr. Johnson would like to go see the long-neck people. Would anyone else like to join him?"), mostly sitting or standing around uncomfortablely. When we got back, we were too tired to hit the night market. Thus, one day was wasted.

Third day was the best, I think. We did most of our shopping then. Got a hair cut. Back to looking like a boy-then-not-quite again. Discovered a new wing of the shopping centre and bought a pair of leather boots! XD Then, more night market trawling, (alas, no tasty meatballs this time) and I sat a tuk-tuk back. Wheee~ Plus room service for dinner! What fun.

Fourth day was okay, since we didn't have time to do much, and we left before the night market opened. So we bought more stuff (to quote one of my aunts, "LOAD."), ate more funky Thai food and watched Moulin Rouge on cable. Now I want to get the VCD. Argh. Musicals. >.<

Flight home was delayed, and I got gastric from drinking coffee without milk in the waiting lounge. Other than that, the whole trip was good.

Skye > Darling = Bern.

Penumbri > Pimp. Please.

Aya > Very tasty, yes. ^^ My brother says you "bake yummy". XD

... she wrote at 07:55 p.m.

Tuesday, December 9, 2003

Server wipe! Darn. Just when I hit 30 on Miguard. And we never got married! *wails*

*watches 30,000+ Z dowry and assets and go bye-bye*

Xiang Xiang came over today. Went swimming. Skipped out visiting (yay!) and stayed home. Shared dinner consisting of chicken cup noodles, potato chips and chocolate chip cookies. The best dinner ever. XD

Parents still bitching about the kitchen. Scrubbed walls until my hands are swollen with chemicals. *pffffffttttttttt* And now they won't shut up about my computer usage. *dumps Magiclean Grease Remover over them* Bleh.

Need to start packing. Stupid weather.

... she wrote at 10:15 p.m.

Monday, December 8, 2003

*squeeeeee~* Dr. Wang, I want to have your babies!!!11

Oh, Law & Order Special Victims Unit so to-tehly r0x0rs when he's around. Yummy. XD

In other news, the kitchen renovation has taken over the whole house. I now hide in my room (only sneaking out to watch Jackie Chan's Adventures) for fear of being made to move trays of seasonings and tea services around. @.@

And Tsu? Wig, books and my , please. I'm leaving on Thursday. I'll meet you on Wednesday to get the stuff, 'kay?

Sparklehorse's King of Nails is so cool. *on loop* Penumbri has good taste in music, desu. XD

... she wrote at 03:31 p.m.

Saturday, December 6, 2003

Maybe the reason I didn't fall for your suave and mysterious charm is the fact that I'm gay.

Riiiiiiiiight.

"Fancy seeing you here"? I mean, come on. My socks have more savoir faire than you, you creep. Gentleman of the old school, you are not.

That birthday SMS was bullshit. You're a sociopath, a case study, a textbook example. You've been dissected and deconstructed and laid bare in so many psychology books I've read that whatever you do is nothing new.

Don't you have anything better to do than attempt mind-fuck with someone younger than you? Shove it, I don't need this sort of grief anymore.

*pfffffftttt* Okay, Alex, quit acting hysterical already. XD

Anyway, hopping over to Midguard. My darling's going to get me a Morning Star! *giggles*

*bounces off to lvl up*

... she wrote at 11:54 a.m.

Friday, December 5, 2003

First of all, a big thank-you to all the birthday well-wishers! *hugs everyone* I've had the most people remember my birthday this year. XD Man, I feel so loved.

Secondly, this year I have no particular inclination towards any character, so I'll just be taking accessory comissions and generally helping out where I can. So, if anyone needs anything, just tag or drop me a line, and I'll see what I can do.

sgRO is going well. I have a new offensive spell now. Although, I know I'm way, way behind most of the other players. XD Oh well, let a girl have her moment, eh?

Anyway, going out later with Keri, Bern and the rest. Off to fix lunch now and get ready. Grocery shopping calls. XD

... she wrote at 01:00 p.m.

Thursday, December 4, 2003

I'm fifteen today. Hurray!

And to celebrate, I've just been made an acolyte on sgRO. *strikes pose* Eat mace, poring! *bashbashbash*

To borrow a line from Tsu, one more year to go, and it's goodbye statutory hello~ consensual! XDDD~

... she wrote at 01:38 a.m.

Wednesday, December 3, 2003

Went to Keri's house today. Helped Skye make her feather fan, and stressed out over the wings. Watched Austin Power's Goldmember and Finding Nemo while we worked. XD

Trying out my hand at sgRO. Got to base level 11 before the server crashed. -.-;; So here I am, twiddling my thumbs and considering playing FF9 in the meantime.

Apparently, I'm astoundingly polite on RO. o.O Well, thank you, LaNTiS, whoever you may be.

Lalala I am not an Ro addict IamnotanROaddictamnotamnotamnot~!! ARGH.

*slinks off to level up in FF9*

... she wrote at 11:19 p.m.

Tuesday, December 2, 2003

New layout. Wintery~

My birthday's in two days. =D It's not too late to do some shopping, people! XD *shameless*

This layout's soundtrack (inspiration):

Matchbox Twenty - Difference
Coldplay - The Scientist
Counting Crows - Round Here
Tori Amos - 1000 Oceans
Ryan Fari - Atlantica
Milk - Sad Letter
Tori Amos - Vincent
Final Fantasy IX - Rose of May (Beatrix's Theme)

... she wrote at 09:00 p.m.

Monday, December 1, 2003

FF9 has eaten my brain.

First Watch - more Eiko/Vivi. XD G this time, honest.

Adelphe: ... ... Don't come any closer or I'll... I'll... hurl glass tumblers at you! Yeah!

Skye: Told ya the fic rocks! XD Oh, yes, Kuja. Mmm...

Tsu: Hee~eeyyy~ *glomp* So have you finished it?

Bern: Awww... *Vivi plushie* Luv ya too.

... she wrote at 01:54 p.m.

Saturday, November 29, 2003

I am home. Finally.

Weather is becoming of November. Rain, rain, beautiful rain. Flight is on the seventh. That is, December, I mean.

If there's one thing I'm learning, that's to trust yourself only with yourself.

I still miss lots of people. I miss all of you like crazy, but I'm not going to cling and whine all the time. Not giving into impluse is hard. But I'm trying. I guess. It's good to stand on your own two feet. Or something.

Now, before I launch into some mauldin retrospection (thistimeoftheyearlastyearIwasblahblahblahblah) I will cleverly shut up and change topics.

FF9 is fun. FF9 is cute. FF9 sure as hell beats FF8 in terms of game play and graphics.

FF8: "Look, we have an evil sorceress! Go SeeDs! No, wait! That wasn't the one! Here's another evil sorceress! Let's throw in some time compression crap and up the mind-screwy factor while we're at it!" *sprinkles fangirl Latin*

FF9: One word: Vivi.

*squeals incoherently and glomptackles the game to death*

@|| PH3@R TEH CU43|\|3ZZ!!!11 Slowly, but surely, it will creep into every Square lover's home and gaming system under the pretense of an overlooked installment. And soon, the whole world will succumb to the power of FF9! *MWAHAHAHAHA*

Okay, I love this game too much. <3 Aegis for lending it to me. I will draw her much FF fanservice when school reopens. *winkwink*

Plugging: Counting Crows - Anna Begins

... she wrote at 11:40 p.m.

Friday, November 28, 2003

At my grandma's house. Took a bus here around four. Walked in from the main road instead of switching buses at the interchange. It was drizzling, and I had my demin jacket and umbrella and discman playing Counting Crows all the way. Um, nice?

Ack, and it's still cold, and my fingers are half-numb. *breathes on them* Ngh.

Funny, I was running on a high the better part of the day (and yesterday as well), but once I come by it sort of gets killed off by the pervading Doom and Gloom, not to mention the smell of medicated oil and the general Turn Off the Light Draw the Curtains Oh My Eyes Can You Turn Me Over Get Me My Pills No I Don't Want Instant Cereal I Want My Pills What Did You Say Can Someone Close The Windows And Turn the Lights Off whining.

My mother wants to play at being super-woman, but unfortunately, she can't handle it. So she takes it out on everyone and anyone.

I, on the other hand, know when to quit.

... Maybe I should go have dinner.

... she wrote at 07:14 p.m.

Thursday, November 27, 2003

Alright, am much better now. Everything's settled.

Spent the most of this morning (read: 1 a.m.) and late afternoon drawing. Now running on a 'drawing' as opposed to a 'writing' high. =^^=

Updated my DA account with all the new stuff. Tami's writing makes me so delirious. And she's great to talk to about fic on AIM as well. *grin*

And yes Tsu, they do deserve it. XD

... she wrote at 06:26 p.m.

Wednesday, November 26, 2003

It used to be easy to talk to you. Hair-styling lotion, the lack of a PS2, book fairs, leather jackets and Subway queues. You were witty and smart, and you always made me laugh. You kept away the worst of the night-thoughts, and you always had good advice on hand.

But now there's a silence that gnaws at us and it stretches out and threatens to swallow me and no matter what I say to fill it up it sounds so stupid so childish so utterly fake and wonder if it's because of what I said that night when I told you I was so afraid of dying and I wanted to go and I cried and I cried and did it all go wrong then if not when did it change or was it the time I told you about him or are you just sick of hearing me cry do you hate me do you hate me can I take it back can I take it all back and let's pretend it never happened let's pretend everything's still the same because I miss you and I need to talk to you but I can't find the right words and I think you hate me I think you wished you never picked up the phone I think I should go and this is not the first time I spoilt things this is not the first time this is making my head hurt and what should I say to you now?
... she wrote at 12:23 a.m.

Tuesday, November 25, 2003

Went out for lunch with my family today. Had dim sum~ And it was actually kinda nice. My mother was in a good mood today, and she gave me clear lipgloss which is shiny and I <3.

I don't think there's anything wrong with dressing up sometimes. Afterall, I'm a girl.

I like the weather outside, all cloudy and damp. It's really beginning to feel like November/December.

Today I'm not estatic, but I'm content.

... she wrote at 04:25 p.m.

Monday, November 24, 2003

I'm bored. And my Tatsumi/Watari fell on its face. Oops.

1. [wallet] Dark blue leather
2. [hairbrush] Black
3. [toothbrush] Pink, white bristles.
4. [jewelry worn daily] I have a silver snake ring I wear out often...
5. [pillow cover] Peach with ruffles.
6. [blanket] Patchwork
7. [coffee cup] I don't like coffee. I drink tea.
8. [sunglasses] Frameless black Versace
9. [underwear] ... ...
10. [cologne / perfume] I don't use that.
11. [CD in stereo right now] Matchbox Twenty's More Than You Think You Are
12. [tattoos] Ouch.
13. [piercings] ... *fingers earlobes protectively*
14. [what you are wearing now] Oversized cotton t-shirt, black wakeboarding shorts. And pretty pink nail polish. *wiggles fingers*
15. [in my mouth] Braces
16. [in my head] Greymatter
17. [wishing] for my holidays assignments to miraculously complete themselves
18. [after this] I will eat dinner
19. [fetishes] SEXY BROODING VAMPIRE GODS! *tackles Vincent*
20. [if you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what] It's hard just to pick one. Probably for being an ass.
21. [person you wish you could see right now] Tsubaki
22. [is next to you] Nobody.
23. [some of your favorite movies] Chicago, Cowboy Bebop: Knocking on Heaven's Door, The Matrix, A.I
24. [something you're looking forward to] My birthday.
25. [the last thing you ate] Buttered toast.
26. [something that you are deathly afraid of] Death?
27. [do you like candles] Yes.
28. [do you like incense] It depends.
29. [do you like the taste of blood] Ick. No.
30. [do you believe in love] *tilts head to the side*
31. [do you believe in soul mates] In stories, maybe.
32. [do you believe in love at first sight] Look up.
33. [can you eat with chopsticks] Yes.
34. [what are some of your favorite candies] M&Ms and Hershey's Cookies and Cream Kisses.
35. [what's something that you wish people would understand] My Lewis Carroll obsession.

first things first
[my name is]: Alexiel. Or Alex, mostly.
[in the morning i am]: Groggy.
[all i need is]: Intellectual conversation. And lots of tea.
[love is]: Bullets and flowers and sunshine in winter.
[i'm afraid of]: Falling.
[i dream about]: Lots of things.

favourites
[colour]: White.
[number]: 42?
[subject]: Chemistry. Modern Alchemy.
[clothing brand]: Zara *giggles*
[shoe brand]: No particular preference.
[sport to play]: I don't like sports.
[drink]: English Breakfast Tea.
[animal]: I don't like animals either.
[holiday]: The Lunar New Year.
[favourite line from a movie]: "Buckle your seatbelt, Dorothy - cause Kansas is going bye-bye." - Cypher, The Matrix.
[band]: Live, Remy Zero, U2, The White Stripes, Matchbox Twenty, Goo Goo Dolls, Nine Inch Nails, Counting Crows, Sixpence None the Richer

have you ever..
[pictured your crush naked]: Only so many times... *smiles at Vinnie*
[actually seen your crush naked]: Does doujinshi count?
[had sex]: No.
[made love]: No.
[been in love]: I don't know.
[cried when someone died]: No one I'm that close to has died yet.
[lied]: What do you think?

who..
[makes you laugh the most]: Tsubaki, Keri, Bernadette.
[makes you smile]: lots of people.
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: Funny?
[has a crush on you]: *blink* Well, not that I'm aware of.
[easiest to talk to]: Tsubaki, Wilfred, Bernadette

do you ever..
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to i.m. you?]: o.O That's lame.
[save aol/aim conversations]: Trillian logs them automatically.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: Briefly, once every month.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: Yes.

have you ever..
[fallen for your best friend]: I can't remember whether it was an engagement or a marriage...
[been rejected]: *laughs*
[rejected someone]: Yes
[used someone]: May~be?
[been cheated on]: Never was that close.
[done something you regret]: *nyao*

who was the last person
[you talked to on the phone]: Keri.
[hugged]: Tsubaki.
[you instant messaged]: spiderflower
[you laughed with]: My younger brother.

do you / are you
[smoke cigarettes]: That's disgusting.
[obsessive]: Yes.
[could you live without the computer]: It's passworded. Go figure.
[how many peeps are on your buddylist]: Trillian says: 58 +21 = 79. But some are defunct.
[what's your favorite food]: Cheesecake, white chocolate, cookie dough.
[fruit]: Persimmons.
[drink alcohol]: On occasion. Bailey's Irish Cream. Peach brandy.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: Yes.
[what hurts the most]: Past regrets.
[trust others way too easily]: Yes.

number..
[of times i have had my heart broken]: Many?
[of hearts u have broken]: One? *giggles*
[of continents I have lived in]: Just one.
[of drugs taken illegally]: Look ma! No prescriptions!
[of tight friends]: X3
[of cds that i own]: A few originals, mostly self-burnt.
[of scars on my body]: Chickenpox scars counts?
[of things in my past that I regret]: Hmm...

pick one..
[marry perfect friend or perfect lover]: Friend.
[cats or dogs]: I repeat: I do not like animals.
[1 or 2 pillows]: Three!
[with or without ice cubes]: It depends.
[top or bottom]: Variety is the spice of life.
[winter / spring / summer / fall]: Autumn, damn you.
[night or day]: Day.
[gloves or mittens]: Don't need either.
[dressed or undressed]: Dressed, you PERVERT.
[bunk or water bed]: Water bed~
[mtv or vh1]: Both are cool. XD
[ocean or pool]: Ocean.
[showers or baths]: Showers.
[love or lust]: Love?
[silver or gold]: Silver.
[diamonds or pearls]: Pearls.

if you could..
[move anywhere]: Europe?
[meet one famous person]: I'd like to meet Neil Gaiman, if I can pretend I didn't read Neverwhere or Stardust.�
[live with one person the rest of your life]: My grandma.
[name one thing you love]: Reading.
[name one thing that embarrasses you:]: My acne. =X

lastly
[do you like school]: No good days.
[do you like to talk on the telephone]: Yes! *nikonikniko*
[do you like to dance]: I'm... not good at it.
[do you sing in the shower]: Usually.
[do you think cheerleading is a sport]: Well, you have to be fit...?
[what's on your ceiling]: White paint.
[what's the hardest thing about growing up]: Looking back.

... she wrote at 07:18 p.m.

Sunday, November 23, 2003

Started on the AHA facewash course again, and now my skin is tight and peeling and itching. Arrrgghhh.

Wrote Touda/Suzaku today, attempted Rika's Ran/Ken for the fourth time (and gave up). I just feel so repressed writing these.

Matchbox Twenty's Bright Lights on loop. I should stop posting song lyrics before I bore all of you to death. Oh well. But sometimes it's easier to use a song than try to spell things out. I guess.

... she wrote at 09:44 p.m.

Saturday, November 22, 2003

Today was one of those exhaustingly happy days. Met Tsu at Novena Square for lunch. We ate at Spinell's (sp?) and I realized how much I miss cheesecake. Found out the set-building session was cancelled, so we took the MRT train to Orchard Road.

I have never done so much shopping and actually enjoyed it in ages. Granted, most of it was window-shopping, but damn. Bought pink nail polish and Count Cain 12. Found many, many pretty clothes and how to wear black without looking like "a druggie." (Wear blue-black.) Tsu has unleased my inner Miniskirt!Whore (read: Mango and Zara!).

Found a lovely dress for Christmas at Voyage de Rita. If my mother is kind, I might get it as a combo-present (either that, or those shoes we saw downstairs).

Then, we took a bus and crashed at my place. Did each other's nails and whatnot. It's so nice to be fifteen (well, I will be, in a few more days).

I'm just so deliriously pleased right now, even though my feet are starting to ache (like they always do. It'll go away tomorrow.) Heck, I got self-actualized today!

Dinner is bee-hoon, and it smells really good. And later, I'm going to make lapsang and write lots of drabbles.

Life is good.

Oh, and
Happy Birthday, Sei-chan!

Skye: Thank you. ^-^ Is it the pink or the blue-checkered one?

Bern: Will do, m'dear.

"you never went to the moon
you said I sent you to the Dark Side
you never set your foot on her white skin
as far as I can tell she�s still a virgin

this is my theory now that you are gone
all I have is speculation as to what went wrong
I found my faith when I stopped believing in you
I found my faith I found my faith

there never was a Lone Gunman
they found my body filled with holes
I bled for anyone who aimed to rip me open
you weren�t the only one who had a motivation

you never were a Son of God
a thousand years of Western Thought
you held so tightly to the Grail that no one knew
that now the bloodline will go to the grave with you"

-- The Endless Band, Conspiracy

... she wrote at 07:59 p.m.

Friday, November 21, 2003

"Now I lay me down not to sleep
I just get tangled in the sheets
I swim in sweat three inches deep
I just lay back and claim defeat

Chapter read and lesson learned
I turned the lights off while she burned
So while she's three hundred degrees
I throw the sheets off and I freeze

Lids down, I count sheep
I count heartbeats
The only thing that counts is
that I won't sleep
I countdown, I look around

Who needs sleep?
well you're never gonna get it
Who needs sleep?
tell me what's that for
Who needs sleep?
be happy with what you're getting
There's a guy who's been awake
since the Second World War"

-- Barenaked Ladies, Who Needs Sleep?

... she wrote at 12:12 a.m.

Thursday, November 20, 2003

Updated Cheap Thrills with the FF drabbles I've been posting on lj.

Very productive day planned. I have an A Maths end-year paper to complete, a room to clean and fic to write. Not to mention LoM questing.

More hours in day, please?

... she wrote at 12:51 p.m.

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

Found the codec I need to play Saiyuki Reload 2. Yay~

Went swimming just now with my classmate. Then we watched Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within and pigged out. XD

Downloaded this hilarous Neil Gaiman story from his website. Apparently he wrote it around "four in the moring" when he was "rather drunk". He's got a funny dictation. The weird thing is, the file time shows up as 68:06, but the narration only lasts for about 30 minutes. o.O

Tora-neko : Oh yes, the scythe. Don't you just love the implications?

Oh, and Kingdom Hearts 2 Kairi dresses like an Ah Lian. That is ALL.

... she wrote at 05:15 p.m.

Tuesday, November 18, 2003

SEI-CHAN~! *squeeeeeeeeeeee*

(Is it, you know, a bad sign when find yourself wanting to lick your monitor?)

... she wrote at 11:34 a.m.

Monday, November 17, 2003

Been playing 'Legend of Mana' since yesterday. The game isn't rendered in CG, but in illustrations, imho, so much prettier. It's like a big watercoloured storybook. The only problem it that it's pretty non-linear and I've been stumbling around without a walkthrough until this morning. I've made like, dozens of non-helpful decisions, laying artifacts and all. Oh well. *shrug* It's still fun.

Headcold slighty improved. See? Squaresoft cures all!

Sei-chan's birthday is on the 22nd. *grin* Maybe I'll make a layout.

*points to the sidebar* Like my anti-404 button? You can have one too! Just save and upload to your own server. ^^ Melcena will kill you if you steal her bandwidth. Rest assured, it will not be pleasant. *grin*

*runs off to continue playing LoM*

... she wrote at 02:32 p.m.

Monday, November 17, 2003

It's the curse of November. People start falling ill together. Dreaming together.

For the record, my sinus are [mostly] clogged up. It wasn't as bad as yesterday, since the novocaine wore off. (Tooth extraction to make room on my upper row of teeth.) I tried to nap it off. Which bring us to... now. *looks at clock*

In other news, I have wishlist up. I'm shameless, I know. Go take a look at it. If I get just one item off it, I'd be ever so grateful. (Like that would ever happen. Well, one can dream.)

Oyasumi, minna.

... she wrote at 12:29 a.m.

Sunday, November 16, 2003

Painted my nails black on impluse this morning. They don't look especially nice or anything (I might take them off later), but what's the use of the holidays if you can't paint your nails some henious colour and get away with it? XD

Finished Brave New World. Ow. My head.

Neverwhere, truly, deeply, sucks. I'm sorry. Neil Gaiman should stick to dicating storyboards and comic scripts. I gave up counting cliches after the first 100 pages.

Why is my computer making funny clinking noises and interrupting my playlist? *kicks CPU*

Tsu > That's Meg White, one half of the White Stripes. I'll make a layout with both of them soon. Oh, and if you can, you should try Biting the Sun by Tanith Lee. It has a sequel called Drinking Sapphire Wine too. (I got my 2-in-1 copy from the library.)

... she wrote at 12:42 p.m.

Saturday, November 15, 2003

Went to Rachel's house yesterday. Michelle and I played Kingdom Hearts (which I am so going to pimp to Aegis once I see her online), watched FFX spheres and overdrives (AURON! <3 <3 <3) and no-brainer FFX-2. FFX was beautiful, moving and realistic, in the sense that it showed that nothing comes without a price. FFX-2, on the other hand, was an over-hyped, sickeningly cutesy, cheesy excuse to leech off the success of FFX and parade Square's mad rendering skillz. YURIPA! GURRRRL POWWAAA! I mean, look at the damn Neoprint-Charlie's-Angels-ParaParaParadise-rip-off backgrounds. There's so much 'attitude', that it isn't funny. *gags* Thanks, but I'll stick to FFX, anyday.

Went swimming. It was weird at first, because the diving end scared me. (I'm used to have my feet touching the bottom.) Then, after a while, I got used to it. Drank root beer, ate Cheezels, Rollercoasters and Pocky. Got super-giggly, fell over one and another singing "Inori no Uta" and scared a gaggle of girls at the other end of the pool. ("Ashley, do you think they're, like psycho?" "Oh my gaaawwwd, Jess, I think they're gay!") XD

After that, we raided her kitchen, took over her bedroom and just bounced around, being crazy teenage girls. Stayed for dinner (which was good, like all homecooked meals are) then proceed to be lazy and channel-surf. Braided Rachel's hair, got deluged by Michelle's stuffed toy collection, sang Disney songs and whatnot.

It was fun. =^^=

Oh, and lookie:

which white stripes song are you?
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Going to make a winter/White Stripes layout before my dentist appointment. Nyao~

... she wrote at 09:54 a.m.