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Saturday, November 19, 2005 I am easily amused. Heehee. Project meeting was cancelled, so I went for claypot rice with my dad. My father and I don't go out together often enough. You think we would, being the two marginally more stable people in my family, find more time to bond. Thank god for a sane adult presence in this household, or else I'll be a raving madwoman by now. Just like Mother's good example. Am making a new layout. This one is starting to grate on my nerves. ... she wrote at 02:02 p.m.Thursday, November 17, 2005 The Dandy Warhols make me happy. I love Courtney Taylor-Taylor! <3333! Mother went psycho again after dinner, swearing she wouldn't cook anymore, since we were all ungrateful fuckers. In her own words. My clever younger brother chose to act like a prick after having his computer game interrupted by dinner, and bang things around. I don't really care. I can always eat in school before I come home anyway. I don't see why she has to go around threatening and screaming, just to pander to her own ego. No more subbordinates to fuck, so she has to take it out on her family. Hm. Today was fun. Discovered the karoke room in the Halo Bar. Reasonable rate, lots of recent Mandarin pop songs to choose from - like K-box only better. Project work is making me slightly batty. The TLS one is okay - it's the IAC project that's making me go grrrah. No one seems to give a damn about whether we get it started or not. I guess if we fail, we all fail together and repeat then. =/ ... she wrote at 08:43 p.m.Sunday, November 13, 2005 X out whatever you've done before - now with spelling corrections! XD [X] Played spin the bottle? Tuesday, November 8, 2005 My laptop is fixed! Damian is fine; it's the adaptor that died and had to be replaced. =P Almost got run down at the traffic junction this morning. Was crossing when the light turned green, and this white Mercs on my right suddenly came screeching to a halt right in front of me. The front of the car was just a few inches away from my legs. Motherfuckers, speeding lights. He drove off without even apologising, or looking the least disturbed. You could acknowledge that you almost plowed into me, you SOB. Turned back and made license-plate copying motions with my handphone. I hope it nags at him for a long time. Watching DMC1 cutscenes. Okay. Obviously Trish spends a lot on surgical tape. ... she wrote at 02:59 p.m.Saturday, November 5, 2005 Home from the trip. There were no beaches, but I watched a transexual cabaret. I shall now die a happy person. "Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow" showing at 9 on HBO. Jude Law! *drools* I can't believe my flight made me miss Project Runway. I am greatly miffed. Everyone keeps telling me about Austin. How could I have missed it? He's so insanely pretty, I could weep. ... she wrote at 07:43 p.m.Saturday, October 29, 2005 It really wouldn't matter you know, if you went and just fucking died already. At least there would be quiet in the house. ... she wrote at 03:32 p.m.Saturday, October 29, 2005 Sorry, Cherry, for not answering your call. x_X You should call my house phone first, since I'm more likely to answer it anyway. Flying tomorrow. Feel a bit out of it; not much enthusiasim to pack. School's starting, I'm dead broke and I need a job. Haha. Time to eat {$d_entry}.80 dao sua and fruits until I save up enough. I hope we'll go to the beach. Beaches always cheer me up. If we go shopping, I need to remind myself: NO MORE SKIRTS. I buy them, wear them once, and stash them away where they'll never see the light of day ever again. Tired. I WISH SCHOOL WOULD START NOW. I can't stand it. Fuck it all. ... she wrote at 01:04 p.m.Thursday, October 27, 2005 From Cherry [ Confessions ] Mark in X into the boxes for your confessions [ ] I'm afraid of the quiet.[ ] I am really ticklish [ ] I am afraid of the dark [ ] I'm arfaid of facing my back to open doors at night [X] I am homosexual or bi [ ] I believe in true love [ ] I've run away from home [ ] I listen to political music [X] I collect comic books [X] I shut others out when I'm sad [X] I open up to others easily [ ] I am keeping a secret from the world [X] I watch the news, some of the time [ ] I own over 5 Rap CDs [X] I love Disney movies [X] I am a sucker for green eyes [ ] I don't kill bugs [X] I curse once in a while [ ] I have (had) "x"'s in my screen name [X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation [ ] I love Spam [X] I bake well [ ] I have worn Pajamas to class [X] I have owned something from Abercrombie [ ] I have a job [ ] I love Dr. Phil [ ] I like someone [ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS [X] I am self-conscious [X] I love to laugh [X] I have tried alcohol [ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis [ ] I have tried a cigarette [ ] I have smoked a pack in one day [ ] I loved Lord of the Flies [X] I have cough drops when I'm not sick [ ] I can't swallow pills [X] I have a few scars [X] I've been out of this country [ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in my room [ ] I love chocolate [ ] I bite my nails [ ] I am not comfortable with being me [ ] I play computer games when I'm bored [ ] Gotten lost in the city [ ] Seen a shooting star [ ] Had a serious surgery [X] Gone out in public in your pajamas (walked to the petrol kiosk for groceries) [ ] Have kissed a stranger [X] Hugged a stranger [ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of the same sex [X] Been in a fist fight [ ] Been arrested [X] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of your nose [X] Pushed all the buttons on the elevator [X] Made out in an elevator [X] Swore at your parents [ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose [ ] Been skydiving [ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour [X] Bitten someone [ ] Been to Niagara Falls [X] Gotten the Chicken Pox [ ] Crashed into a car [ ] Been to Japan [X] Ridden in a taxi [ ] Shoplifted [ ] Been fired [X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back [X] Stole something from your job (...lots of blank paper) [ ] Gone on a blind date [X] Had a crush on a teacher/coach [ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans [ ] Been to Europe [ ] Slept with a co-worker [ ] Been married [ ] Gotten divorced [X] Saw something/someone dying [ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day [ ] Been to canada [X] Been on a plane [ ] Seen The Rocky Horror Picture Show [ ] Thrown up in a bar [X] Eaten sushi [ ] Been snowboarding [ ] Been skiing [ ] Been ice skating [X] Cried in public [X] Gone purposly into traffic with your eyes closed [X] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have So drama. Anyway, going to sleep, now, fucking exhausted. Goodnight. ... she wrote at 11:27 p.m.Tuesday, October 25, 2005 Booya. Life has poured a multitude of distractions into my lap, just in time for the start of a new term. To do (at leisure): - Read Kushiel's Avatar- Watch Veronica Mars 12-20 - Read the Shoebox Project and weep quietly at the sheer genius. Found my pink and black Chex Vans slip ons at Far East. Did not dare to check the price. Am afraid I will quaver and spend the time from now to my birthday/Christmas trying to formulate a plan to get Daddy to pay for another pair of shoes. I love my skate shoes. I'M JUST SO FICKLE. Also, my hair is rebonded now. I look mad skanky when I swish it from side to side. Tomorrow, I shall accessorise when I got for my lunch. Tee-hee! *is promptly smacked by readers* So, tomorrow, lunch date. Thursday, Halloween celebrations to crash. Saturday (or is it Sunday?) flight leaving. MISSING TWO WHOLE DAYS OF SCHOOL. Cannot emphasis this fact enough. I don't think I'll be able to settle down properly and study for a week after. Also, several people in my life need to be acquainted with my folding metal chair. It will be fast, very painful, and most probably leave you robbed of many basic motor functions. To avoid this, you should a) not act like a bitch; b) keep your emo-fuckery to yourself; c) bitch about me very discreetly; d) return me whatever money/clothes/books/doo-dads you owe me before I remember and chat you up at your place one fine weekend. With my folding metal chair, or it's less bulky cousin, the spanner. This is very important, please take note. Spread the good word. Cheers! ... she wrote at 01:18 a.m.Sunday, October 23, 2005
Alex is highly amused. Took a break from sewing. Drew a Jam picture. Alright! I have a bad habit of ignoring proportions, so my females always end up with insanely tiny waists, generous bust and hips, and muscular arms and legs. Which is why I like drawing video game characters. Guh. Millia Rage is still 23904751 kinds of hotness, but I can see why a lot of guys like Ms. Kuradoberi. X3 She's really fun to draw. Big hair! Swinging sleeves! Lacy skirt! I like her thighs. Jam has thigh muscles like a dancer. *goes back to inking* ... she wrote at 01:10 p.m.Friday, October 21, 2005 I'm seventeen and I'm crazy. My uncle says the two always go together. When people ask your age, he said, always say seventeen and insane. - Ray Bradbury, Fahrenheit 451, 1953I've found out what's been tiring me out so badly the past few days, looking at my schedule: 9 am: Wake up, wash up, have breakfast10 am: Start sewing 1 pm: Break for lunch and continue sewing 5 pm: Stop sewing. Do chores and read. 7 pm: Dinner. Watch TV, laze around, go online. Read fanfics. 2 am: Sleep. I spend about six hours on sewing and another four online. NO WONDER I'M HALF DEAD. *thud* You know how an idle mind is a sick mind? Well, I'm really good at circumventing that to the point where I'm stuck on one task for half the day. Like drawing, or reading. You should have seen me when I played GGXX. I would do it until I got sick and flushed from chionging at arcades. Not pretty. Stellar's dress is now half done. I shall finish the top and leave the sleeves for another day. The fact that I don't have the materials on hand helps. =P This shall be the absolute last time I rush a costume out. I think after this I shall be cured of my obsession with sewing. Read DGrayman scans. Linali's new uniform is SHORT LIEK WHOA. Are those leather hotpants?! DUDE. Her new hair looks super rebonded, which is good, I guess, since I'm getting mine done next Monday. Will be missing the first two days of school due to a family vacation. I was fretting nonstop about it for the past few days, until I came to the conclusion that: a) I've already spent the last semester in the blocks we'll be using; b) The tutorial group remains the same for core modules; c) I was never a model student to begin with. So, uh, I'll just use that nifty 20% they allot for AWOL attendances or something. ... she wrote at 10:45 p.m.Thursday, October 20, 2005 Today was a good day, as days go. Did more sewing than I should have; am very tired now. Sewing seems to pass the time slower than surfing the internet, but it makes me feel less guilty when I'm done. I just wish for once, I could say, simply: "I missed you, so I called you." Sometimes the simplest things are the hardest to acknowledge. So tired. Can someone tell me why I'm so tired? I'm so sorry; I need to draw but I can't. All I can do is sew and read and curl up and try not to think. ... she wrote at 11:41 p.m.Wednesday, October 19, 2005 Like they say, you can't rape the willing. Have been getting the worst headaches ever. Slept for ten hours last night. Spoke to Mother; she says the talking and screaming at night hasn't gone away. Obviously, someone was lying when they told me it stopped a few years ago. ... she wrote at 09:44 p.m.Sunday, October 16, 2005 Today I have: - Vaccumed my room- Drawn a Stellar sketch - Washed and conditioned Rika's wig - Handwashed costumes Still need to: - Do. Commissions. Like. Fucking. Now.- Wait for rain to stop, and Aurenn to come over Considering: - Baking scones- Buying materials for Stellar's deconstructed dress. - Calling aniki - Return library books I'm such an unproductive bugger. I need to keep myself busy to take my mind off things, but get exhausted so quickly, it's not even funny. I need more stamina. And motivation. ... she wrote at 02:34 p.m.Saturday, October 15, 2005 Don't disturb The beast The tempermental goat The snail while he's feeding on The Rose Stay frozen, compromising What I will I am Bend around The wind silently Thrown about Again I'm treading so Soft and lightly Compromising my will I am I am I will So no longer Will I Lay down Play dead Play your doe In the headlights locked down And terrified Your deer in the headlights Shot down and horrified when Push comes to pull comes to shove Comes to step around this Self-destructing dance that never Would've ended till I Rose, I roared aloud here I will I am. I am I will So no longer Will I Lay down Lay dead Play this Kneel down Gun-shy Martyr Pitiful I rose, I roared I will I am - A Perfect Circle, Rose ... she wrote at 10:36 a.m.Wednesday, October 12, 2005 Touch-deprived babies, both animal and human, do not develop normally. Tell us something new, Time magazine. Personal space is something I've always had an issue with. I used to scream and swear whenever someone brushed against me. Hands up, whoever got a earful for bumping into me while walking. =.=; Now, it's getting easier, and I do like hugs (very much), just not touchy-feely people, that is, people who behave like their touches hold some deep, significant Noh theatre-like meaning and paw at you like some bad hentai LSG (love simulation game) senario. I don't mind now when people do things in careless affection, except perhaps head-patting, which I still find deeply demeaning. I let my guard down just once, and I nearly get my shoulder shaken out of its socket. Fantastic track record of physical contact I have. I still find intimacy unsettling, or more precisely, intimacy involving myself. I think lovers and couples are fine, and they don't bother me - it takes a lot more to scare me than most people think. =.=; Romantic relationships, in general, don't hold much attraction to me. Stimulating conversation ranks above stimulating visuals, although both are important - what's a relationship without physical attraction? - but above all I need a sexy brain to pick. Otherwise I get terribly, and utterly bored. Admiring is one thing (I do a lot of it ahaha), but I'm a see-and-no-touch sort of girl, and sometimes getting too close ruins the fantasy. I would be greatly flattered if anyone tried to date me on the basis of my brand of intelligence and logic, instead of, well, breasts and hips, but we can't have it all, can we? Of course, I could just sum it up and say I'm commitment-phobic, which I suppose I am, to a certain extent. It is also true, that I often love well, but none too wisely. ... she wrote at 06:47 p.m.Wednesday, October 12, 2005
Tuesday, October 11, 2005 Sometimes you wish you were a different sort of person. You could kiss a stranger in the dark, take a joyride, take a swandive off a pier. You could sell out, you could love them back, you could get smashingly drunk. You could do something, anything, more. ... she wrote at 01:17 a.m.Wednesday, October 5, 2005 Awful headache on Tuesday, didn't go for drama. Am prepared to commit seppuku; if I miss anymore sessions it won't be good PR at all. Tomorrow is my Shiho shoot aaaaaand - I'm retaining water. $#%*&)()%%$#@!!@# GAAAAARRRRHHHH. I HATE IT. I better not get cramps tomorrow, or THERE WILL BE HELL TO PAY. -ING, I say, loudly and wrathfully. -ING -ING -ING -ING! The sewing machine and I are in a contest of wills. Today, I forced it to sew the white panels of my Stellar costume, after unpicking (ie, pulling the seams apart and slashing at the stitches with a penknife) at least five times because the stitches went everywhere. I need to learn to control the pedal/speed better. I am such an idiot, and I need to set my priorities right. No more online shopping, it's killing me looking at things and conveting them, when I know they'll just make me utterly broke. ... she wrote at 10:00 p.m.Sunday, October 2, 2005 Been sleeping and waking up late these few days. My internal clock is screaming. I feel zombified. I need to start going back to 11 pm bedtimes and waking up before 8 before my brain implodes. Things to do V. IMPT because Alex is teh slacker: - Ink Ziru's commission- Redraw Rika's - Double-stitch collar-lining - Buy white cotton drill - Buy black ribbon - Sew ZAFT belt And there's still Linali, which is going to kill me, through and through. -_o ... she wrote at 02:25 p.m.Thursday, September 29, 2005 I feel slightly feverish. I think it might have something to do with playing Devil May Cry 2 at Rika's place the whole afternoon. OMG Dante is freaking wicked. SEXYFINE DanteDanteDANTE. *_* I was getting seizures throughout the game. Hahaha. DMC2 is great, even idiots like me with no aim and dexterity can play it. It's always like this - I'm fine when I play the game, and afterwards I get flushed and sick from the excitement. It's awful, I tell you. I don't get out and kill stuff enough. He's gorgeous and pale and there are all the typical masculine factors going off: strong jaw; broad shoulders, tall, muscled, defined brow and nose. Everything. Unnnh. Dante. UNNH. You are so badass, and I love you loveyouloveyou can I have your babies NOW?! *DEAD* ... she wrote at 08:04 p.m.Wednesday, September 28, 2005 Spring-cleaning, yosh! Replaced the tagboard with a cbox (such a trendwhore, I am, ahaha) and switched to statcounter for tracking. Went digging around the old tracker to copy over stats, and realised what an insane amount of page views this miserable old thing has gotten since 2003. 14,910 - you guys are madlove, really. 3 o'clock teatime, in comparison, has about 550+ page views (since the beginning of this year). All in all, not too shabby. XD I feel validated. Go Alex! Stuff to do today: - Ink C/S sketch- Butcher hoistery - Draw collar pattern - Dust living room furniture. Foamcore and watercolour paper, guilting me quietly from the corner of my room. I also have a Vincent/Yuffie story idea brewing in the sub-basement of my mind. It's pretty vague right now, but I need to justify the phrase you don't save the world together and come back the same. *_* Yuffintine recs - most guarenteed to make you sniffle, or, if you're like me, cry yourself silly. Growth, by EnkidaSunshine in Winter by Guardian (Tami) Faith and Feather by Rose Flame (I haven't finished reading this one, it focuses on too many other characters, but it looks very promising.) ... she wrote at 11:25 a.m. |
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