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Saturday, September 11, 2004 All my life I've been like a pendulum, swinging from one maniac high to a low and back to another. Have I told you this before? Tick, tock, syncopated clock. I knew this couldn't last. False calm. Spira. Spiral. 'Of course, whenever a person can pause, look around, and discover they are truly happy, they can go right ahead and document that moment as the beginning of the end.' So this drawing out and winding down, stopping stopping stopstop stoppe- no. Never. Can't sleep. Waiting for news. Everyone's so nice to me on MSN. Smile. Lunamaria. Pretty ace pilot smile. News won't come till morning. It's morning, already, isn't it? It shouldn't have to be her. I should go sleep. ... she wrote at 02:35 a.m.Saturday, September 11, 2004 how far to the river? Eurydice, why? ... she wrote at 12:55 a.m.Thursday, September 9, 2004 Keri came over and we watched The Full Monty OMG it slays me. <33 Gus orwhateverthecuteleadblondewas. Now I have that song stuck in my head. I believe in miracles~ What is wrong? You sexy thang! *lol* Prelim revision coming along nicely. I still have Physics, Chemistry and Social Studies to revise. Just enough days. *grin* Off to play RO now and terrorize people on MSN.
... she wrote at 10:41 p.m. Wrote yesterday. It's... Soukyuu no Fafner hourfic yaoi. But tasteful done, I swear. ^^; Quite relieved, in a weird way, that I haven't entirely lost my touch yet. =D Patching... patching... forever patching. ~.~ Two nights in row. I'm dying from a lack of RO. Pimping A Song of Ice and Fire to Cherry. I can just see her turning into a Jon fangirl. XD Or maybe a Sandor fangirl, like me. @.@ Yeah! Sandor-love! *ducks to avoid being hacked to death* <3 Finished revising half of the Bio syllabus today. Go me! Transport in Man, I pwnz j0~!!1 ... she wrote at 11:25 p.m.Monday, September 6, 2004 WARGH I HAVE JACQUELINE CAREY'S "KUSHIEL'S CHOOSEN" OMGOMGOMG *dies* Btw, the Kushiel series is Carey's debut series and it is hot, in a freaky way. Choosen is the second book. Liona's lending me Kushiel's Dart when school reopens but I couldn't resists. LOL. Strawberry cheesecake and Angela's "Fly Me to the Sky". Life is good. *hums along* ... she wrote at 09:08 p.m.Sunday, September 5, 2004 It's one in the morning, and revising is the furthest thing from my mind right now. Characters I'm inspired to do for EOY (all will be self-made, mind): - GSeed, Orga aka blond druggie-pilot (yes. you read it right. now, any willing Shanis, please raise your hands.)- Soukyuu no Fafner, Shouko ("KAZUKI-KUN~~!!!" *splat*) - Ragnarok Online, Munak (stil rather iffy about this. right now the thought of being Orga is too fun and is eating my brain ow.) Oh god, I have no life. Tsu: *offers you a camellia* Then we shall die together. ... she wrote at 01:19 a.m.Saturday, September 4, 2004 A Maths is pure torture. I couldn't do more than one paper before getting demoralized. I really feel like crying sometimes. When did my mathematics become so poor? And all along I thought it wasn't a liabilty to my L1R5. Meredith Brooks is great listening. She's got such a nice tempo to her songs. 'If We Kissed' = Soushi/Kazuki. Alas, I must go struggle with my assignments again. =.=; Bern, dear, if you're reading this, please call me before I go mad. ... she wrote at 04:22 p.m.Wednesday, September 1, 2004 Too lazy to study for Bio much today, so ended up yakking on the phone again. I would like a (Makube) Kazuki, quite badly. I mean, he's so pretty, yet so not-girly. (Does that make any sense?) My knight, on the otherhand, is convinced that Soushi is The One For Her and Will Not Be Disuaded Otherwise. Her: And I want Soushi coated in chocolate... Me: Kazuki in a dark blue yukata... Her: In chains... Me: Sipping tea together... Her: Wine, roses, chocolates... Me: 'Shang yue' and him writing me poetry... Her: Rose petals on the bed... Me: Falling asleep, lying against his shoulder... then he'll carry me over to the futon and tuck me into bed. Her: ... And because Soushi's so nice, he'll let me be on top. >D Me: ... And I'll probably use Kazuki as a pillow. "Gee, Alex, you're so innocent and tame." *sigh* Where are princes when you need them? ... she wrote at 09:41 p.m.Wednesday, September 1, 2004 I watched Sokyuu no Fafner 6 today. I watched my daughter burn up like a star.
I'm not going to be able to sing 'Seperation' properly anymore.
tachi tsukusu machi wa yugami Wednesday, September 1, 2004 alexiel, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant with a balanced preference for auditory and visual inputs. Because of your "centrist" tendencies, the distinctions between various types of brain usage are somewhat blurred. Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor, unless it requires total spontaneity and ability to improvise, your weaker traits. However, you are far from rigid or overcontrolled. You possess a degree of individuality, perceptiveness, and trust in your intuition to function at much more sophisticated levels than most. Having given sufficient attention to detail, you can readily perceive the larger aspects and implications of a situation or of learning. You are functional and practical, but can blend abstraction and theory into your framework readily. The equivalence of your auditory and visual learning orientation gives you two equally effective sensory input systems, each with distinctive features. You can process both unidimensionally and multidimen- sionally with equal facility. When needed, you sequence material while at other times you "intake it all" and store it for processing later. Your natural ability to use your senses is also synthesized in your way of learning. You can be reflective in your approach, absorbing material in a non-aggressive manner, and at other times voracious in seeking out stimulation and experience. Overall you tend to be somewhat more critical of yourself than is necessary and avoid enjoying life too much because of a sense of duty. You feel somewhat constrained and tend to sometimes restrict your expressiveness. In any given situation, you will opt for the rational, and learning of almost any type should be easy for you. You might need certain ideas explained to you in order to fit them into your scheme of things, but you're at least open to that! They make me sound so cool. *lol* Okay, going to sleep now. *tosses aside Bio cluster papers* ... she wrote at 01:32 a.m.Tuesday, August 31, 2004 Literally ran around the whole of Singapore today. Tiring, desu. My tutor was very annoyed at me, because I keep nodding off while he checked my answers. >.<;; Feeling horribly guilty, because I've been spazing on the phone with aniki for two nights in row and practicing 'Seperation' (ending theme of Sokyuu no Fafner) in lieu of actual Prelim preparations. I can do a decent imitation of Angela's 'gritty' voice now! Wahahahahaha! *does a spasticated little dance* Now, though, I can forget about singing 'Melodies of Life' for a lo~ong time, until I relearn how to 'smooth out' my notes again. Oh, well. It's worth it, I guess. When I grasped your cold fingers Saturday, August 28, 2004 Geography test today. It went surprisingly well, considering that I studied on the bus to school and was up until twelve the night before chatting with my knight. Speaking of her, we went out for lunch today. Walked around HarbourFront, looked at cute accessories and clothes. She bought me a feather hair-stick-thing. It's so Calintz! So bimbotically pretty! And we got matching snake rings, yay. Dumped a quarter of the container of cheese on her seafood pasta. Very full, very happy. Then she came over, and we lazed around. Let her try on my ZAFT uniform, squealed over Touda/Suzaku, threw around random costuming ideas. I would really like to attend CosMas this year. I heard the Malaysian cosplayers are very friendly. Would like to wear my Asuran costume with boot covers and the belt redone in front of like, different people. Maybe I'll even get my Munak done, if my knight finishes her Sohee. XD Fell in love with GAIA (FFI) and Tooi Hibi no Nagori (FFV) after listening to the FF: Love Will Grow album again. I think I will be trying out for one of these next year. And Soukyuu no Fafner's Shangri-La SLAYS ME OMG. *dies* The vocals are gorgeous, even the nasal whine is trippy. XDD For everyone tagging and encouraging me for the exams, thank you very much. This unworthy one will try her best, yes. ... she wrote at 05:53 p.m.Friday, August 27, 2004 'Exams stress'... funny, I'm not even really working hard. Been drawing like crazy nowadays, trying out ballpoint pen-inking. I work best under pressure, I suppose. =P Having pointless arguements with my family almost daily now. I don't believe that bickering is granted just because you're a "teenager omg wtf". Mother is having one of her bouts of 'zeal', and she's been trying not too subtly to drag me to a 'youth meeting'. It's supposedly some 'nice group where you sit down and discuss about JC and Poly admission and all that *hinthint*'. When I probed further she admitted that it was 'held in the church function room'. "Like a bible group." Turns out, it was a youth prayer group. You know, I fucking hate it when she does this sort of thing. "And Auntie so-and-so's son is there! He's in JC2 you know! A very nice boy~~ *HINTHINT*" What do I have to say? Like OMG MOM I'M GAY NO THANK YOU. So like, stick all your pretty SJI boys, why don't you. If there's anything more I dislike about churches it's the bloody YOUTH LITURGY MEETING WTF CAN'T YOU GET IT. Give me our sweet, bloody history of witch-hunts and self-mortification anyday. (By the by, I'm 75% heterosexual, hurhur, FYI.) ... she wrote at 10:51 p.m.Saturday, August 21, 2004 Biology test was alright, surprisingly. I'm confident that I got two out of the three questions mostly right. E Maths June paper was not so great though. Too burned out from writing Bio essay answers to really focus. Plus there wasn't even a break in between! Bloody sadists. Rushed through the Maths paper skipping questions 'liberally' and left early. Trawled through Ginza Plaza with schoolmates. Spent too much on food, terrified everyone with my poor eating habits ("Potato chips and cinnamon buns before eleven?!") and generally had lots of pointless fun. Very nice to destress. Rented Full Moon wo Sagashite volume 5. Came home, all nice and inspired. Started work on a bookmark series and /I actually like it/. @.@;; If I actually manage to produce enough decent art to display and sell, I'm considering getting a table for the EOY event. That is, if doing Lehas doesn't kill me first. ^^;; Natsu-Matsuri this evening. I'm sitting this one out. Got four Physics cluster papers to finish and a big Organic Chemistry test on Monday. Blah. And then there's A Maths which I must force my dad to revise with me or I can say 'ja baibai' to my B3. =.=; Off to scan in stuff and let the world [DA] know that I'm not dead yet. ... she wrote at 05:15 p.m.Friday, August 20, 2004 The whole class is seriously starting to gear up for Prelim preparations. I'm getting quite freaked, because it seems like I'm going to be left behind if I don't dig out my cluster papers soon. My revision schedule is quite horrible. It usually consists of me laying out whatever overdue work I have (and then some) out on my desk, and going through them one by one until a) my eyes give out or b) I come across an A Maths paper. >.< Then I go read my Biology revision guide. Then I crawl to bed, dream something horrible and disjointed, and wake up the next morning with dark circles and the terrible feeling that I think there's a test I forgot to study for. *dies* Listening to X Japan's Longing and getting depressed. Stupid studies. Stupid hormones. Even "Find the Way" is making me tear. find the way kotoba nakute mo tobu hane wa nakute mo~~ WARGH. Extremely guilty, because I took two hours off my revision to draw Touda and Suzaku for my knight. Now I must go mug for tomorrow's Biology test and the E Maths mock paperwhygodwhyIhateyou. Cherry: Thanks for the encouragement. And the 'incentive'. *lol* All the best for your exams as well. @.@ ... she wrote at 08:43 p.m.Saturday, August 14, 2004 Eleven o'clock and I'm not the least sleepy. I haven't done anything the whole day but surf the internet and watch Gundam Seed episodes. I miss aniki. I wonder if his university term has started again yet. Aniki, if you're reading this, please try not to be too digusted at my fangirl rambling, and SMS me or something - ICQ hates me. Talked to my knight over the phone for hours. It's so nice to be fangirlish with, you know, intelligent fans. We were talking about ZAFT pairings, my Fllay/Kleuze theory, cute Dearka/Milly scenes, and somehow the conversation evolved into a Yzak/Mary-Sue scene. (We were trying to decide what sort of girl to stick His Royal Bitchness with. Er, "taming of the shrew"? XD) She's convinced that a flight co-ordinator named "Alex" is cute. And she wants to write fic for it. Oh my. Bad~ images. X3 This blog desperately needs a new layout. Green is making me queasy. Am starting to dislike even child-Kira now. Afraid Asuran is next. Will make one right after this. I put too much maple syrup in my NTUC-brand chin chow, and now I have to eat it up slowly, because it is expensive maple syrup air-flown from our family friends in Cleveland, Ohio, and my guilty conscience dictates that I must finish it, so I will. Gah. So sweet. @.@ ... she wrote at 11:03 p.m.Saturday, August 14, 2004 Skye's GSeed collection is missing episodes 38 to 43~ ;_; Will have to ask Aegis on Monday for hers. Aegis-sama~ onegai~~ *looks beseechingly* Aegis: *raises eyebrow* Again? *sigh* Gundam Seed has my soul and the rest of my cosplay plans for the next year. Watched up to episode 37 today. Strangely, I feel nothing towards Lacus. She tries too hard to be 'angelic'. Everyone knows Ms. Clyne is the by far the sharpest one around, so she can just stop smiling so 'disarmingly'. *coughcough* Fllay, on the other hand, is more interesting. Wahahahaha. I'm terribly jealous of her. She gets Sai practically worshipping her, Kira Yamato as her boytoy AND she gets to sit on Kruuze's lap (*nosebleed*). Dammit. If I got to faint prettily in his arms /and/ hitch a ride in Providence I'd gladly be uber-bitch anyday. Heheh. Readers: But Lacus Clyne got to sit in Asuran AND Kira's lap! #_# But I don't like Kira~~ I only want Asuran! Asuran: ...You know, it's probably wrong that you've cosplayed me twice, and everytime you do, you tell the whole world how much you want to, ah... XD Wonder if Stellar (Destiny) will be as interesting as Fllay. Her outfit might be worth doing, just to see everyone's expression when I appear in thigh-high boots and *gasp* with my shoulders bared! XD Apparently I'm "too deeply associated as Asuran". Well, it could be worse. I could be doing Mizu no Akashi Lacus. *watches readers gasp, choke and die* ... she wrote at 05:33 p.m.Friday, August 13, 2004 Watched the promo clip... OMG ASURAN IS SO TEH SEXX0RZ IN HIS NEW JACKET W00T W00T HOT *drools* THE ZAFT GIRLS ROXX0RZ AND I AM GOING TO DO LUNAMARIA AND NOTHING CAN STOP ME~!!!!shift+1 I am so glad I tailored the ZAFT uniform instead of the OMNI one. *looks at shoulder cut-outs* *snerk* AAAAAAAAAAAHH~~!!!! ASURAN!! I WANT YOUR BABIES SO BAD! ... she wrote at 10:53 p.m.Friday, August 13, 2004 Maths assignments just keep piling up. Aegis confesses that she hasn't touched hers either. Haha. This makes me feel... better. Sort of. Drew Cagalli in military dress today. I like her way better than Lacus. XD (But then again, I'd rather dress up as Fllay than Ms. Clyne, so... *shrug*) Damn SEED OST torrent, so screwy~ *stabstab* Give me back my 22kB/s d/l rate, dammit!! GSeed Destiny Zero Attack promo clip is out... trying desperately to finish downloading before I get chased off the computer. So many torrents... can't play RO for fear of crashing the entire computer. T.T *shuffles off to study for A Maths* ... she wrote at 10:03 p.m.Monday, August 9, 2004 I just realised this morning, after 9 hours of uneventful sleep, that my eyebags have deepened. Stuff it all, I can't stand it anymore. I'm going to buy cucumber tommorow. In other news, I have Gundam Seed episodes. MWAHAHAHAHA. I suddenly want a small, black, backpack, quite badly. You know. A4-sized, messanger bag, type. My school bag is a retro shoulder-sling, but it's really killing my shoulder. ... I am out of witty, non-depressive things to say. ... she wrote at 03:32 p.m. |
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